What should i do?
I try to chill myself but i can't..
My tears keep dropping,
my face full with tears...
My heart was broken,
although i just imagine it..
Maybe he is the important in my heart,
but my parents don't let us be together..
I love him so much,
He love me so much..
But we're not the same type...
He is cold, i'm hot..
He is penguin, i'm giraffe..
A penguin won't born a kid,
Because they won't meet each other..
He is Malay, i'm Chinese..
Can be together,
but parents don't let...
What to do?
They always scold,
Don't let me sms,
Don't let me stay back..
They just want me to break with him...
But,
I won't give up our love!
I want to be strong!
I won't break the rules!
I always scold by them,
and now,
I'm trying to control myself
to let them won't scold me..
I want to stop texting with him..
Just after my dad is back,
I'll stop it..
It will make us less chat..
We already less meet,
less hold hand,
less hug,
less kiss,
less texting,
less talk...
What to do?
They don't agree our love..
My heart is broken but I can't do anything,
I just can do what they want me to do..
Maybe everyone is thinking i'm no brave,
but i still wanna do this,
because....
I don't want my parents hurt him...
I know I'm so stupid..
The most stupid is me!
Love him Love too much..
Maybe my god want me with him forever,
but they will give me many problem,
they want me solve them and we just can be together..
It just like a love story..
My love story is full with problem and lies..
I lies everyone in the world,
including myself..
Only god know,
I'm lying to everyone...
i feel wanna suicide just now,
I'm trying to chill myself..
I tell myself,
'Not to hurt yourself'
And finally,
my brain lost this words 'suicide'..
He is so important to me..
I don't know what will I do if i break with him..
Maybe kill myself?
Maybe cry for many many days?
Maybe not eating?
Maybe lock myself in my room everyday?
Maybe just doing everything to recover my pain?
I don't know.....
I'm really a loser....
